on the wae to skoll was kinda worried lar...worried hah...den reach skol nth happen...phew..haz...lesson were borin man...i no mood oso...jus wana die frm it liao...den recess cut cake wit frenz...den after tt chi....dint slp nehz...1st time im awke in chi lesson...den lata mathx...mr woon werent here...2 period free...den oh oh....moix fren start drawin mi hand le..followed by other...cant even struggle off thm...was handicuff by thm man...den draw til the had duno like wad sia...sho ps to walk arund wit all the wishes on moix hands man...oso kena beat frm clsmate man...machiam killin peeps the......after tt go canteen lolz...kena beat like hell again ..all hit same spot nehz...pain til cry...cant tahan pain animore...feel so useless man....so sian...dint do anitin at all...4plus go off le...tt moix bdae bax...no mood to celebrate oso...no qi fen oso...aniwae mi wana thx all thos peeps tt wrote all the wishes in the card..and the cookies..yumyum~~...stil tins the beast prezzie ish the card...can nv be forgtten e... thx all...love you guyz loadS~~
hml le..mama bought pizza and lots of tiny..gt mox fav choco too...hoho..im gonna be fat le~~~~tt all bahx...happi bd to mi once again~
alone 7:47 PM
tmnl gt trg ...haiz...tml jiu shi tue le...sho fast im nt even in the mood fer mi own bd ...kaox...tt all bahx....
wHeN i sEe uR sMiLe,My dAeS sEeM tO bE hApPi aNd lItE~mIsS yEw~
alone 6:47 PM
todae~
woke up 9 +...shower online le..mama papa woke up oso...fatfat oso...den i gt scoldin fer nth again lehz..didi dun wan wake up mi fault mehz>???sae himoso dunn care e...den all bu shuang even mi...all tt bastard fault den hai dao hole family unhappi...now gt up liao...ply his ps2 act dao nth happen...kaoz...this kind of bro oso gt lehz...13 on 14 liao oso bu hui xiang...kan dao wo bei ma dao sho jia latt oso dun dare speak out the truth...hamm jiii argh!!! fatfat dou gan bang wo 14 yrs e sho useless....haix...fark up lehz....sae sho much oso cant hlp dao...jus wish sumone sumdae will understane mi feelin man...blog tonitez~
alone 11:15 PM
i wana cut moix hair!
alone 4:11 PM
Mon~
sch wan boring...mondae lover nehz...can die frm it...comb humans and sci on sae dae yet ish frm 1 to 4th period are combine humas den after tt 4 period of combine sci...rox rite???slp fer 8 period liao lolz but i din slp .....wad would u do if u haf all these lesson on the same dae...?rox the wolrd upside down man...im totalli stress frm all this 8 lesson....nearli slp lolz...but i haf to wake myself up...i cant slp like wad i do in sec 3 daes...all i do ish slp tru the yrz...no wae im doing this in sec 4 ...N level ish rund the coner le...no time fer mi to slack liao...im worried fer tt
FArkin N level~~~after sch when ta hall fer O level release~im surprise tt there are peeps tt score so mani A1s man...i totalli can believe man...a1z lehz...how m i gona gt those result?N level i oso cant make it tt kind le...yet O level stil gt peeps socrin so well...mux realli pei fu those geni man...while knowin their result i some how gt the worry`ness like tt...haix... after tt went hml le bahx...
TuE~
lesson were alrite...but i dream in cls alot ...was think of nth but u..i duno y kip thinkin...haix...lesson til 3 pluz....den cum out go fer trg le...trg was more on skills bahx...im totalli out of strength n everytin...feel sho useless...cant spin oso le..haix,...jus feel like takin the ball n wack it far awae man...feel sho fark up wit my back pain knee and elbow~~~!!!!i owaes tot of gibin up bbal but wadever i tell sir he jus wunt approve mi ... told mi nt to gib up but wads the use of mi plyin on with nt performin when i should be....trg sho long i stil cant correct wad i should be correctin...arint i jus wastin my own time going trg all these....i sumtimes jus wonder ...haix... after trg when hml le...haix..
WeD~
lesson nt bad...was bery slpy but dint slp...1st time....gt back chem papers...failed lolz...haix tt teacher teach i totalli dun gt her...ask her one on one stil cant understand her ....4gt it...after sch eat le do h/w den 230 took sch bus down to support boys finals...haix...my wish of plyin in the finals gone lolz...last yr in jss le...wunt gt the chance to ply after this yr..haix...tou i haf sec 5 but i duno whether to ply if i go sec 5...nvm...while watchin the gme was thinkin of mani mani tins...all the tins hapen in tt hall durin my sec 2 dae...haix...it happened todae oso..im sho upset lolz...boys lost to unity...den collectin przie le...was very upset...sir wasnt there ... 2 yrs back he wasnt there too!!!im sumhow hate tt... 2 yrs back we took our prize he want there now oso nt there...u nv wanted to see the 5 of us take jus tell us lolz...y stil bother to tell us u wan to see us tru our last yr in jss..YYYYY????sobxx...y wan make us think negative...at least tell us y u werent there...upset man...after tt when jp makan jiu go hml le...
TodAE~
lesson fer 1st 2 period fun...had balloon to ply ...im scared of it aniwae....we are told to blow as big as possible to rite our dream on it...of cos i did tt....2nd balloon was told to blow fer our problem...after tt we were told to burst our problem balloon...oh no...this ish scary....i dun dare to sit on it man....so took pen n poke...boom...gt shocked ...scream sia...mani gals also scream....den had to hlp to tie the balloon on the window...kaoz....was shakin like shit....1st 3 balloon successfuli put...next 3 burtz rite b4 mi man....nearli cry...heart pump dam fast man....but fun lar...all thos boom boom and screamin...hahz...den jiu lesson le...after recess jiu go com lab til 115...actualli muz do coursework...but mi n mi frenz surfin the net all the wae til end of the dae,...haix...after tt go jp den hml le...haix...
tml gt trg lehz...dun feel like going ....tired!!
Wo HeN xIaNg nI!!!haix...
i haf no interest in bbal le..im totalli dead in bbal ..i jus wana stop plyin ... i jus wana stop!!!haix...i haf mani tins i wana sae but 4gt it...sae le no one will understand how i feel ... all i can do ish i jus take a step at a time le... dun wan look back or tink far le...jus wana relax my brain fer the rest of my life...hope my heart stop b4 i do anitin silli?i understand y gals like to cut there hand i do now...i neo the feelin le cos i tried it...it hurz physicalli nt emotionally...it feel alot beta tt bein hurt emotionalli...haix....i neo i have been tellin peeps nt too...but now im doin it ,i finalli understnd lehz...haiz....tt all bahx...take care all....
alone 5:44 PM
You're always with me
Even though, you're far away
Talkin to you on my cell
Just the sound of your voice
Makes my heart meltOh girl, well it's true
I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No baby, you never
Have to question my love
And every night there's a new crowd
But it's always you I'm singing about
There is only one
These words are going out to
Oh girl, I'm all about you
I know you worry sometimes
Some other girl will
Make me forget you're mine
There's not a doubt in this world
That anyone could take
The place of my number one girlIt's true
I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No baby, you never
Have to question my love
And every night there's a new crowd
But it's always you I'm singing about
There is only one
These words are going out to
Ohhh girl, I'm all about you
When I close my eyesI can see you
It's like you're right here
And this feeling's only getting stronger
You're with me everywhere
I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No baby, you never
Have to question my love
And every night there's a new crowd
But it's always you I'm singing about
There is only one
These words are going out to
Ohhh girl, I'm all about you
I'm all about you
Fades...
alone 9:39 AM
THx Sy`14 fer the chat..felt sumtin frm [u] ... and oso wana sae sry too...
thx cl`09 fer ya concern...thx loads!
reach hml 4 plus this mornin...sho tired now but stil dun wana slp...haiz...faced the music frm father and surprisinly i didnt gt it frm my ma..but instead she hlp mi tok to my pa....how surprised!!but im guilty ok! can feel tt my ma ish hurt inside after wad happen ytd...and she stil act dao nth happen n tok to mi niceli!!argh!!im rong bout my mother...but nt fer my father!!!haix...going out to town lata wif frenz fer movie(hide and seek) and kai kai ..2nd time watchin it...dun wana stay hml....stay another hourz = to another face of music by pa...gona go out til tonite...
Im BacK fRm movIe aNd sHoPPiNg!!!!!!
firstli i muz sae im hyper todae!!!onli had 2h of sleep...when to plaza sing den to jurong point ...moivez!!wanted to watch hide n seek but no sit den decide to watch white noise....suppose to be a horror show but i ended up cryin and laffin man...those pictures are scary ...kinda sadist todae lar...ppl were screamin while i was cryin...toopid man...after tt walk rund jp...so sian...jp close eyes oso can walk liao...after tt i go da qiu...oopz...heez...i jus wana ply to let out mi feelin...now im hml le...startin to tink ..haix...sian!!!
11 daes to mi bdae nehz...kinda worried lar...mani are happi but im scared n worried!!!
alone 10:48 AM